This was on the way to the car, she loves to talk!
WOW! I never expected today to be so emotional. Going back for the first time since surgery has really hit me. When we first arrived, I was teary eyed... but they were tears of joy. I was completely overwhelmed with happiness, pretty much because of everything... we couldn't be more blessed.
First, they took Bentley back for her echo. It took double dose of sedation meds, Ryan, myself, the nurse, and an hour and half before she gave in.. and YES she even stayed awake during the ride there. We could not believe it.. I nearly fell asleep just trying to get her to. After the echo we went back to see her cardiologist. He informed us that her echo looks good. Her heart does not look normal and will never look normal, it functions differently but it functions well. So YES, everything is GOOD, GREAT, A BLESSING. It looks as it should and she has had an amazing recovery.
I guess, during the visit.. after seeing Bentley in the hospital gown, seeing her in the echo room having an echo, seeing her "loopy" from the sedation, being at the hospital (the hospital she had her surgery at), and the cardiologist telling me her heart will never look normal.. all the scary feelings came back. A lot of emotions I felt up until the surgery.. just hit me and hit hard. I have not one time looked back since surgery, we witnessed and were apart of such amazing and massive miracles that I have not been anything but grateful every since. I am still completely grateful, don't get me wrong. We are very blessed and I know we are. I see it everyday. Today was just a hard day. During our ride home, I had a lot of time to think, talk to Ryan, and more importantly pray. I feel a lot better now, just a long. emotional. day. Good and bad. I really hate to post this because I am so thankful for such a successful journey, I don't want to come across like I am complaining because, I am not. Just going back for the first time, was a little different than I expected. I know I have many prayer warrior friends.. I really am okay, no need for prayers for me... but here are a few people that could really use our prayers.. Stellan, Abby, Owen and Kate. I know there are so many more out there (many on my side bar as well), but these are just a few that I know of.
Also we need to praise God for being with Abby Grace and her family this past week, and pray for a great recovery to continue. And check out my great blog friend Kristin who is doing great things for a sweet little boy named Zach. Both Abby and Zach were treated at Texas Children's Hospital in Houston, the same hospital Bentley had her surgery at. Abby Grace was actually discharged this morning, so yes we were ALMOST there at the same time. Her mom Amanda and I hoped we would have the chance to meet for the first time today. We were not able to today, so we are hoping and planning for December. Something very similar... Kristin came to the hospital to visit Zach the same day we were discharged from Bentley's surgery, we were also hoping to meet but were unable to, we just missed each other as well. Maybe one day!
Again, thank you my friends for the prayers today. Bentley is doing wonderful and we were so happy to hear that from her cardiologist. Texas Children's Hospital is an amazing TOP hospital, not only for hearts for everything!! Oh and, Bentley is 28.5 inches long and 16 pounds even at 11 months and 11 days old.